Anyway, today was the day to measure the growth of the babies. We had prayed long and hard to see some good solid growth in both, but especially Kaylan. Dylan was measured first and had grown 8oz since last week and is now just shy of 3lbs. We were very disappointed to see that Kaylan has not grown at all since last week. She is still just over a pound. I feel like we have been saying that for a month now. But still, all the other checks looked ok. The fact of the matter is, she is just not growing and the doctors still do not know why. It is so discouraging to be so diligent in praying for growth and to not see any. But we MUST keep the faith.
And so she was wheeled back to the penthouse suite at B369 to get caught up on a little more rest. Jen had a very steady stream of visitors in and out for the rest of the day and evening. Some brought flowers, some brought prayers, some brought gifts, some brought laughter, but all brought encouragement. All were seemingly the appropriate God-sent antibiotic for a case of discouraging news!
So here it has been 15 days down, many more to go. We are still trying to find a balance of sanity and…
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Brother and Sis - There really are no words that will, alone, bring peace or stop the worry. The fact is, you are fighting for your babies' lives. You are trusting in a God that is the creator of all life and the lover of our souls. You are walking a path of faith that so many of the great saints in the Bible walked. But there are those days you surely don't want to be a "saint." You just want to rest KNOWING that your babies will be well and healthy.
Tears come to my eyes when I think of the emotions you guys are going through. I wish so badly that we, your family and friends, could take some of this fear, pain, and confusion from you. But, instead, we are having to "daily lay it down" just like you are. Rather than coming in and "taking it away", we are getting the opportunity to come alongside you guys and "join you" in crying out to God.
During this time, I have heard a song so completely different... It's by Natalie Grant and it's called "Held". Much of the song's lyrics speak to what you guys are going through. The questions of "Why" and "How could this happen." But the chorus points out that:
This is what it means to be held,
How it feels when the sacred it torn from your life and you survive,
This is what it is to be loved,
And to know that the promise was when everything fell, we'd be held.
Today, my prayer is that you would feel HELD by the Lord who loves you so much that he gave everything up for you...and me. That you would feel His warm embrace and that you would feel His tears as He watches His child...you...in the pains of spiritual growth, knowing that, through this, you will be so much closer to Him.
Father, make Your presence known to Landon and Jennifer today as they fight, on their knees, for their new family. And bring about miraculous growth for both Dylan and Kaylan. Do it Lord, do it. Do it that your Glory may be seen! In the blessed name of our Savior, Jesus Christ. - Amen.
We love you!!! Jud, Jen, and boys
Niiiice. Hope your eye is better, Landon. Safety first, brother.
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